Well I am still trying to figure that out myself. I was talking to a friend the other day about my uncertainty about my future in any direction. We talked about my choices my desires. Here is what I want:
I want to go back here! I love London! I love the crowds, the culture, the people. I love London, I want to go back, I want to live here if I can. I have thought about the ways to go back. I even have thought about going to MBA school here!
That is what I want. But what I have. Well I have a good job. I have good friends, but I need to change something. I am bored with life. I need something more then a day to day job where I do the same things. Not that I am complaing. My friend told me about her job in Washington DC and now I am thinking of moving to:YUP here, if I could find a good job! Not sure why but I am.
So it brings me back to my soap box. I was talking to the afore mentioned male friend. We have been discussing his big plans for life, school, traveling, life, work. All great things and I am happy for him I am! but what am I to do? I told him yesturday about some of the things I was thinking about, and poor guy got more then he bargained for by asking one question. But he was right, do I really want to move to Washington DC? not sure, I do want a family, told him this, but what is a girl who wants something and doesn't have it supposed to do? I don't know about the rest of you but I am not the sit around and mope type. I go out and do other things in the mean time.
I didn't expect to fall in love with a man who lives half way around the world, I didn't expect God to tell me to wait for him while he served his mission. Yes I hoped when he got home my life would have a clearer path then it currently does. And I wish with my heart and soul he would tell me today he loved me. But lets face it, it could happen but not today, and it may not ever happen. But God will pay forward the blessings of following his desires for me. Hopefully in the directions I need and want. But I never know. Until then I guess my options are to continue to out one step in front of the other on lifes path and hope it lands me in a direction and path I am both happy with and ready for.