Hey Lovelies!
Hope you are all doing fantastic! Guess what??? I know can you believe it!!! The fall isn't just coming anymore, it is finally here!. The leaves on the mountains are chaning to their bright fall colors, the weather is so nice, with great tempratures, great big beautiful blue sky, and I love it. I love the fall I always wanted to get married in the fall, fall in love, walking hand in hand as leaves fall off the trees. It smells nice, it is nice, it is colorful and beautiful, and I love the fall!! The only downside snow is coming too sooon!! NOOOO please don't snow, I need the fall to last through Thanksgiving!
Speaking of the fall the yesturday I saw this really great postcard for Disneyland. It showed all the fun of the fall they have there and I thought to myself, Self I want to go to disneyland, who would go with me? I don't know but I really want to go, someone out there want to enjoy the magic of Disney?
Last note, I spoke to him yesturday before he left for home. I was surprised to notice how little anxiety or butterflies I felt. We are friends which makes me super happy, and I know I definately don't have feelings for him. Things are good and I couldn't be happier that things wrapped themselves up so nicely.
Again one big horray for the fall!! Also who wants to go to haunted houses???
Love ya!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Friday, September 16, 2011
Blues
Good afternoon lovelies!
Have you ever felt the blues for no particular reason at all? I feel irritable and not sad but not happy either. It feels like I shouldn't be feeling this way either. Maybe the real word for how I feel is lonely. It is weird to feel like this, it is beautiful outside, work is going well. It is my favorite time of year and football season has started. I have plenty of blessings to be grateful for and yet for the better part of a week I feel lonely and kind of stuck. Like school isn't coming soon enough, like I need a change and I don't know what it is, like I need someone to be me so I have someone to talk to, get advice, and give me a big hug while I let myself cry on my shoulder. I am feeling like I want to date with no real prospects, and lets face it most guys don't see beyond skin deep and there are too many pretty fish in this sea. I am kind a Debbie downer today, I know and forgive me. I just feel out of sorts.
Have you ever felt the blues for no particular reason at all? I feel irritable and not sad but not happy either. It feels like I shouldn't be feeling this way either. Maybe the real word for how I feel is lonely. It is weird to feel like this, it is beautiful outside, work is going well. It is my favorite time of year and football season has started. I have plenty of blessings to be grateful for and yet for the better part of a week I feel lonely and kind of stuck. Like school isn't coming soon enough, like I need a change and I don't know what it is, like I need someone to be me so I have someone to talk to, get advice, and give me a big hug while I let myself cry on my shoulder. I am feeling like I want to date with no real prospects, and lets face it most guys don't see beyond skin deep and there are too many pretty fish in this sea. I am kind a Debbie downer today, I know and forgive me. I just feel out of sorts.
Monday, September 12, 2011
Unexpectations
Hey lovelies-
How are you? I hope fabulous, after all life is more about attitude then what is happening!!
I have been thinking about the experience of the last week. It has been more to digest then what I thought it would be. I told you about a surprise visit. I am not sure what expectations I had set for it, I had really mixed feelings about it. I want to be friends, and maybe I would give anything for it to be. But truthfully unlike other times seeing him for the first time was awkward. It was hard to realize that the experiences we have both had changed us. I am not sure what any of it means to me.
I know for the first time in a year I am not in love with him anymore. Maybe that is a good sign, one that says we could go back to being normal. It was a hard year, and thought of seeing him again when he broke my heart a year ago was hard, I went through all sorts of thought processes wondering what anything could me, did mean and whether I really wanted to see him at all. I don't know if I had expectations, after all expectations are hard to come up with anyways when you don't know what to expect. But I know one thing, I am not sure I expected to have things work out the way they did, I didn't expect to see him, and I didn't expect to feel the way I did. But like I said I think it is good, maybe we can get to be friends again move past the awkward feelings and towards a normal friendship. I don't know if this makes sense to anyone, unless you were me and had experienced this, but there you go.
Make today fabulous!
How are you? I hope fabulous, after all life is more about attitude then what is happening!!
I have been thinking about the experience of the last week. It has been more to digest then what I thought it would be. I told you about a surprise visit. I am not sure what expectations I had set for it, I had really mixed feelings about it. I want to be friends, and maybe I would give anything for it to be. But truthfully unlike other times seeing him for the first time was awkward. It was hard to realize that the experiences we have both had changed us. I am not sure what any of it means to me.
I know for the first time in a year I am not in love with him anymore. Maybe that is a good sign, one that says we could go back to being normal. It was a hard year, and thought of seeing him again when he broke my heart a year ago was hard, I went through all sorts of thought processes wondering what anything could me, did mean and whether I really wanted to see him at all. I don't know if I had expectations, after all expectations are hard to come up with anyways when you don't know what to expect. But I know one thing, I am not sure I expected to have things work out the way they did, I didn't expect to see him, and I didn't expect to feel the way I did. But like I said I think it is good, maybe we can get to be friends again move past the awkward feelings and towards a normal friendship. I don't know if this makes sense to anyone, unless you were me and had experienced this, but there you go.
Make today fabulous!
Friday, September 2, 2011
Take Notes!
Hey lovelies!
I love this video of this little girl!! She knows how to use positive reinforcement! It makes me think I need to take notes, live more, worry less!! Enjoy!! And have a fabulous weekend!
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