I had a pleasant conversation with someone who I consider both a dear friend, and someone who I have great respect for. We were discussing some of the things I have been struggling with, not in specifics, but more general. See I never realized that I am so easily betrayed by myself, I usually put on a good show, no matter how much I am hurting inside I can put on a smile on the outside. But I rarely realize that people see through my own facade. But we got to talking, and that got me to thinking. There is a book and movie called "A Series of Unfortunate Events". I never realized how much there was to glean from this movie, well that was until I watched it with a lot on my mind. The following quotation was in a letter sent to the children from their parents, and in a series of "unfortunate" events they got this after a very long hard journey, including the loss of their beloved parents.
"And what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events, may, in-fact be the first steps of a journey" Sometimes I feel like my life has been a series of unfortunate events. I think that sometimes though I get caught up in the unfortunate events. I think about the fact that he didn't love me back, that something didn't work out the way I expected, that the job I wanted in California didn't work out, that I have no idea where I am really going, what the real plan is when I "grow" up. This series of events though unfortunate as they may seem may not be unfortunate as I feel they are though.
The events aren't just events, maybe, just maybe that series of events is really getting me started on my journey, today I may have no more of an idea then I did a minute ago where that journey will lead me, but the point is that it isn't about how unfortunate the events are. We are all on a journey, we all have a path, the bumps and the unfortunate events that take us step by step on our journey make us fortunate. Fortunate to have a path, fortunate to know that no matter where the path takes us our journey was adventurous, sometimes it brought us joy so fulfilling our hearts were overfilling and we could hardly keep it in, we were almost giddy like a little school girl. Sometimes it brought us so much sadness our eyes were brimming with tears that rolled down our cheeks, sometimes those tears were wiped away by someone who gave us a shoulder to bear our burden, and other times the only thing to dry our tears was the pillow below our head.
But the point is we have a journey, a path, that the events no matter how big or little are the beginnings of the journey! They lead us on our path. So no matter how bleak the path looks or feels, no matter how lost we feel, we know we start by putting one foot in front of the other knowing this wasn't an unfortunate, but rather a fortunate event, and my journey begins here and today!!