New Day New You

Hey friends!
 
It has been a while, it is hard for me to keep up with everything sometimes, but I am alive and well. I have made a decision, with the help of my endocrin. It is time for a change. Tomorrow starts the first day of my weight loss journey again. I was down 90 pounds in 2008. I do not have a thyroid and when my levels went out of control so did the weight gain. So I am beginning again. He gave me many options, weight loss surgery was one, as I thought and prayed about it I didn't feel good about it at all. He gave me another option to try the new weight loss pill Quisma. I have been on the topramax that is part of the chemical makeup for migraines so I am feeling okay about this choice. So tomorrow I will begin my journey. My plan for this week begins with biking about 5 miles 3 times this week, and doing something like lunges, squats, and cardio. for two days. I hope this goes well and I definately need support. I also am going to eat two salads a day and limit my sugar intake. I have a mad sweet tooth and I really hope that this medication helps.
My plan then is to keep track of my weight loss and size changes, I will measure in later this week. Also I plan on using this blog as information for any who wants to know about this drug and the way it helps or side effects that aren't great. I think the experience of others is priceless so it will be good. I could always use lots of advice, and mostly encouragement.
 
Here is to the start of a new week, counting calories, and regular excersize. Wish me luck!!
 
Keri

Thanks giving

No the title is not a mistake. I love, I mean really love Thanksgiving. It is a time where our nation gathers with loved ones and celebrates the bounties. It is really an amazing thing! We need to show more gratitude to the people we love, and most importantly to our Father in Heaven. His love is shown each blessing he gives us. Make sure to show the gratitude he deserves. I want to shout out to my family and friends, you are my life and I am what I am because of you and your love, so thank you. Have a great thanksgiving, and please remember in your thoughts and prayers those who are in need or struggling!

Peace!

Thoughts of the Heart

Good Afternoon Lovelies


I hope you are all enjoying the fantastic summer we are having. I have many thoughts going through my mind, heart, and soul recently. Most have to do with my own life, where I am and what I want. I will share a few with you.


- Have you ever seen Freedom Writers?? If not may I suggest watching it? The premise of the movie is a desire for a teacher to make a difference in the lives of students who are from inner city and gang infested areas. No one has hope for her success but herself, she looses a lot but finds everything she ever wanted, it was very inspiring, I hope to be a good teacher like she is, who has hope for my students successes.


- It is time to have a trim for the new hair do. I love my hair cut, it is easy, it is cool, and I think it looks nice. my long hair was so heavy it had no body at all. It will be nice to have the trim cause then my hair wont be in my face anymore.


-I had a dream the other day. Yeah it was one of those kinds. You know the ones where your the person who you loved most is walking out of your life forever. I think this stems from him of course. I felt like things would get better. Like eventually we could be friends. It seems though as that won't be the case for him. I have tried to stay in touch, but it doesn't seem to work. I miss him.


- What I miss most about him are two things. The dreams. You know the kind where you see yourself having a family, living in another place, and being happy with my life. But more then that I miss my friend, my best friend. I told him everything. it was so easy to let him in. To tell him my thoughts, things I had going on, and confiding with him when I was struggling. I think I would feel better if I knew I had some girlfriends who I could relate to the same way. But I don't. I think truthfully it has always been the same for me. I tend to relate better to men, it comes easier to me.


-All I want to do is to date. Like go out, you know the three P's? Yeah, paid, planned, and paired. I am not asking for a boyfriend, I am asking for a date. For someone to take a Saturday night and take me miniature golfing, or out to dinner. I often wonder if that is asking to much? It would be nice. I am not asking someone to be in love with me, I am still not sure I am ready to be in love with someone else. I have had a crush here or there but they are almost always short lived. All I want is to date.


- It has been ten years since I walked across the stage and became a high school graduate. Ten years?!! I know I am old. I only bring this up because our ten year reunion is this summer. I don't think I am going. High School was hard. I struggled with seeing myself in the mirror, I struggled with not knowing what others thought about me, I even struggled with thinking that people were judging me. But it is more then that. I feel like I don't have much to show for having been graduated for 10 years. I have a job, but it is just a job. I am back in school, but don't feel like I am accomplishing much. I don't have a husband or a family to show off. All I feel I have to show over the passage of time is 80lbs. And that is gained not lost. So for me it feels not like it is worth it. I would be more self conscious then I would to have a good time.


Have a great weekend!!

I am still alive!!

Hey lovlies-


Sorry but school took over my life and the last month has been learning to breath again!! I appreciated being so busy, A- I got a lot done, and B- I was so busy I didn't have to think about anything other then school. No worries about dating or the lack thereof, no worries about being married, or not. It was a nice pleasant thing.


I have to say some of the biggest things I struggle with are still there when all the craziness wore off. I feel great, my life is good and I am blessed. But I still feel, at times almost overwhelmingly, that there is something missing. That thing missing is the thing I have wanted more then anything my entire life. Now it seems I am back at square one trying to learn to be okay with where I am in life. School isn't done fast enough, finding someone who I can love more then myself, and put before myself, and just being satisfied with who I am when I look in the mirror. I realize now something, that no matter who you are there are demons in the closet and they come out and show you that you have to always work at the things that are the hardest.


On a side not, I chopped my hair completely off, like 14 inches or so!! I don't miss it, and no I didn't cry. I think this new look is here to stay for a while! I like it more then any other time I have changed my hair.


I will try to appear more frequently this summer, but come fall there is no promises!!


Hugs and kisses!!

Toilets and a 2 year old!

Hey lovelies-

I have a great story for you all!! I went to take lunch home to my mom today. What I found was not what I was expecting. I thought I would be home for like 10 minutes, not so much! My mom had her visiting teachers in the living room and my nephew had locked himself in the bathroom! So I asked him to open the door, but he wouldn't. I tried to jimmy it open but nothing would work. All while this is going on my nephew who is almost three was playing in the water, dumping it into what I thought was the toilet and flushing the toilet! To get back into the bathroom I ended up taking off the door knob! I found in the bathroom one very wet floor, wet little boy and a big mess!! He had apparently flushed stuff down the toilet as it will not flush. I looked into the toilet and what did I find but grandma's electric toothbrush! oi! Well needless to say he got back in his pjs and I cleaned up the mess!

That wasn't his only mischief for the day! I walked into the family room where our tv is. I could hear him but I couldn't see him. In one corner is our Christmas tree with all the boxes in the back corner. I found him sitting on the boxes! I couldn't coax him out, it took a big lift and a lot of little pokes from the Christmas tree!

What a day, I think I might go home and confine myself to my room! haha

Have a great day lovelies!

Thanks!

I love Thanksgiving! A whole holiday set apart that we can express our gratefulness and appreciation to God and those we love. We get to be grateful the bounties on our tables, our families we share those bounties with and remember that we are blessed. I hope this Holiday Season we can continue to express our gratitude in more abundance!

Remembering

Today is the day we choose to remember past and present soldiers. Men and women whose choice was to go to war for our rights, our freedoms, a place we all call home. They left their families to take care of our families, they and their families pay high prices at our expense, some even the ultimate price.

I once had the opportunity to visit the American Cemetery at Normandy beach, and other places where men fought just like my grandpas fought. I was touched and it brought a tear to my eye. They fought for us, they fought so that we could retain our peace, our freedoms, and our right to call America home.

I think today the sacrifices of the men and women of our armed forces are overlooked and forgotten. We worry about money, religion, politics, and many more things. But each of those things came at price. May we never forget the lives given so that we can continue to have our rights.